2017/9/20. For what, I work?
I am a worker at company, but I sometimes feel that I don’t want to work in here.
Not because of the kind of works, but of the human relationship.
Some says there is no working place without worrying at human relationship.
But is it real? I don’t think so, but it includes truth. If I feel others are bad and I am right, it causes problems in one day.
So am I bad or is environment bad? I can’t answer because of lack of faith for my judgement. I may have IQ score 140, but I don’t have faith for my judgement. But why does the problem happen? Because I want to believe my answer. My emotions tells me that I want to believe myself, but others around me tells me they are right. This is my answer. I want to believe myself, but something stops it. This is my situation.
And what I work for is that I want to believe myself, and for some money.
One day, I want to work in USA as civil engineer. Maybe I don’t have enough determination for it. If I determine I go & work in USA, suddenly I do.
I am making up my mind slowly... Believing myself is difficult for me...